I know time doesn’t care 

I see it in my Google photos 

All the years are there

My 30s have already been a flash

I realize now that not too many people ask 

If me and my husband are going to have kids 

At one point we thought maybe we did 

Am I gonna have regrets?

Nah, I bet

Because in my camera roll is my Golden retriever – who was my 30th birthday present

A brief jiu jitsu stent 

Lots of running – and I’m still getting better 

Sunsets on the bay 

And cruise ships with my husband for little getaways

There’s friends

Smiles in the photos remind me of all the great conversations

Right now I sit in my front yard with my dog 

Eating what I want

It’s quiet enough to hear the crickets and the buzzing of a plane overhead 

If I’m honest, the thought of kids still feels my spirit with dread

Who’ll take care of me when I’m gray?

All the more reason to invest in my health

Sleep is sweet in the fall – 9 hours on the books tonight

The quiet at the end of the day helps me melt

Unconditional love?

Have you ever met a Golden retriever pup?

And he’s never embarrassed by me 

Thanks to him, I’m never lonely

Watching things grow? 

I’ve got some nice junipers planted in my yard, you know

New life?
The lady behind me has three small kids

And for the one across the street, maybe I’ll buy a bike

Google doesn’t care 

To me, animals and trees, the ocean – have always been there

And my husband is the closest friend 

Tonight I’m looking at the stars 

No regrets, no loneliness, no infirmity

40 is not too far

But it’s not a promise

I’ve got everything I want, you see? 

Of my dog, the junipers, my husband, the stars, tonight’s dinner 

I’ll take a picture 

And tomorrow I’ll run 

If this is how I’ve spent my 30s, I’ll say it’s been splendor