The one-star Google review waded into my Saturday morning web surf time
It put another check in the column of “out of my mind”
I read it twice
Thought about yesterday, how I thought I listened well and was nice
If it hadn’t been Saturday, I would have felt the impending doom
Something – I don’t know what – pressing in on me like a monsoon
My boss on one side, clients on the other
My gremlins in the middle with me
Uhh, I still felt a little smothered
So I went for a run
It fixes everything
Never mind that it was raining
I reflected on life like I always do
Isn’t a job just something to get us through?
For seven years I’ve felt like an imposter
Is it true or are those my gremlins
I let the words of that Google review sink in
How many times have I traded my soul for a check
Or for a good review
How long till I retire or expire?
How many people die on my watch
It feels like everything is botched
Am I a puppet on the string
I couldn’t decide if I should’ve run slow or fast
But there was something amazing:
When jogging on a very familiar road
I saw a humungous snapping turtle – dead on the curb
His neck was stuck out, looked like his spinal cord was severed
I wanted to stop and look
In passing I saw his big, round, dark shell
A little further down the road there was another tell
Willow Wood Road was like a proverb
There was another creature on the left side curb
A road-killed rabbit
Looked like he’d been slaughtered as he tried to cross the street
Had the two creatures come there to compete?
It seems the old riddle was wrong about the tortoise and the hare
Wherever they were going, neither one made it there
As I ran the last stretch, I thought about my life
My desperate obsession to optimize
Neither the turtle nor the rabbit made time
There’s no way to please everyone
I had a little more clarity at the end of my run

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