I didn’t think it would feel like this
During the holidays, a strange emptiness

I never thought I’d be jaded

But it seems like even the brightest of the lights have faded

My years are on rerun

Things that were once alluring no longer hold any fun

At my job I wonder is this it?

Have I arrived

Up to this point there’s a lot I’ve survived

But is survival all there is

I admit I’m one among many looking for bliss

No, I’m not depressed

I’m not hopeless

In fact quite the opposite

I don’t think the earth will run out

There’s plenty of green pasture

There is reason for laughter

There’s an army, a family

More numerous than the fish in the sea

And it’s calling

For it is victorious

Declaring good news – that God is for us

I must follow creation

Though everything around me is dying

I will keep on fighting

For the good

For those up next

For one I find myself thinking about, one I’m starting to expect

There is still meaning

Great purpose and joy in being